Tuesday, August 30, 2005


for once i do not know how to emote. just numb. blank.

i read my sister-in-law's blog 5 minutes ago. i found out that my father-in-law has a tumour in his abdomen. i knew that he went for an endoscope yesterday. we were calling and calling but the phone just went unanswered. we wanted to find out what's wrong. well, now i know.

i'm just numb now, can't feel anything. why?

Monday, August 29, 2005


with the waiting and the banking process and lawyers and all those over, now comes the real headache, renovation and even MORE money coming out.

yeah, it's a great feeling, getting and putting together your own nest; a place of our own. but the stress is OMG huge. getting quotes, measuring, measuring and more measuring, designing and placement, which wall to knock down, where to place the door opening, now much to extend, how wide should the gate be, what material to use, what can we keep, what should we discard, what colour should this be; and the most important of all: CAN WE AFFORD IT????? we have to plan all this and play around with our tiny budget. if we actually did what we really wanted, it would probably cost more than the house.

we went to our cousin ronald's new home which is in the midst of renovation. he gave us some advice as well as introduce us to his contractor who, is a second cousin or something like that. now, we are getting a quote from him as well.

now, my husband works really hard to bring home the bacon, so all the planning and calling and calculating and research falls on my shoulders. as i plan and calculate, and to work within the budget, my chinky eyes just get bigger and bigger and bigger and my brain just get tighter and tighter and tighter, my sleep just gets lesser and lesser and lesser, and my hobbies and interest in everything else is fading. am i over stressed? nah, me thinks me needs PROZAC!!!!!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

home sweet home

we've bought a house a few months back and we're expecting the keys to the place next week. it's not a brand new house, therefore the price is much higher than one bought straight from the developer.

both my husband and i were pretty ignorant on the finances needed to buy a house, and did we have a shock of our lives when we realise how much we have to come up with in the very beginning. on top of the booking fee, there were the 10% downpayment, lawyer's fees, stamping fees, and this fee and that fee. we were pretty broke by the time we had signed all those cheques. it wasn't a nice feeling seeing your bank balance drop from from the thousands to a mere 138.62 in the matter of days.

that was then. we've survived the leaner times, and yes, nowadays we grab any outside gigs/jobs that pays well in order to fill up our lil nest egg again. we've put down some money to book some furniture and stuff, but we've got to take out quite a bit more to pay for some renovation, fittings, more furniture, appliances and this and that and all.

we used to have lil getaways for a few days every month at this resort not too far away. we absolutely adore the place, we call it our hometown. we've not been back to our hometown for a couple of months now and we can't afford anymore luxuries of that sort in the near future. it's penny pinching time now.

my husband and i have been so excited about our new home that i've started shopping for the smaller stuff 2 months back. we don't really have enough space at our present place to store anything too huge. i've got table runners, quilt covers, bedsheets, a teak seat, 4 side tables, a coffee table, frying pan, chopstick rests, cutlery and... and... i really can't remember what else.

2 days ago we got a letter from the lawyers telling us that we'll be getting the keys to our own home soon. and now we can't wait!!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Hazardous Haze Presence Denied

the haze brought about by our oh-so-inconsiderate neighbour, sumatra island has now reached hazardous levels. state of emergency has been declared in the towns of port klang and kuala selangor. it's plastered on the front page of the papers everyday. but rumours has it that the authorities has put a gag order on one of our news medium, afraid of the panic it might cause, as well as the bad publicity for the country.

HELLLLLLO!! the world is going to ignore our headlines, our main news of the day on tv, the cnn, bbc news, cnbc, and God knows what else; but they are gonna tune in and listen to what's going on in our country??!! puh leeze.